haha weird things but i will remember im so hyper now but why?why?
i have this poem in my head
but i dont want to write it now
hm maybe tmr or much ltr
hm just wanted to say that the song 'hold on'
is really helping me to hold on now
haha such an irony
haha will elabourate more next time too
worst bball day ever
1:51 AMtdy was one of the worst bball days ever
shot some in
beginning and endin part not tt bad
but other than tt
it was nonsense
cant believe it /:
my mood is ruined
totally forgot tmr got sch /:
haiz hm so like feel annoyed tdy
why is everyone buggin me?!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
bball showdown on tmr night
9:14 PMBASKETBALL GANG IS BACK!!
showdown tmr
wadever time we want
hm actually after sch
anyone wana challenge?
haha jokin or maybe not
hm im just too excited yo
haha alot of ppl comin down
tryin to rope in more
cool if everyone in the court u know quite well
haha happened to me before in my best court (:
miss those times
still EXCITED for tmr!!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
'U' doesnt determine ur life
6:03 PMhey all friends of mine
especially those who have promos/ prelims or A's or even sec sch
this post is for you
dont ever give up
no matter what u face
just know its just a grade
its just a paper
do ur best and everything else God will handle
i know that you may think its the end of the world once u get that F
or in my case, a U
but honestly its not
pls! u r overreacting
has the sky ever turned black once u saw ur result
even if it has, i think it may be ur eyes tearing
haha ur parents wont kill you
they care for u tt it hurts them to see u fail
but failing in sch doesnt mean failing in life
its not worth it to stop living your life
just because some paper and ink said u fail
if u have failed before, move on and live a better life
you may think u r a failure
but i think u r a success for living thusfar
i admit life isnt easy
sometimes u just want to stop everything for good
but why not make full use of the little time we have
and just live!
live with no regrets
live like there is no tommorrow
promos is just one puny little stone in the path
are u goin to stop walking the path and turn ard when u see this stone
u never know
maybe this stone is the milestone of ur life
basically, dont give it
it aint worth it if u do
just hold on
and do ur best
its not the end of the world yet
Monday, September 22, 2008
interesting mac visit
12:47 AMafter so long
finally got to eat at my dear bishan mac
hm i miss hangin out and annoying amos
haha got a chance to do tt today though
hm amos so nice to me and talk
weirdly when i opened my spicy nuggets
there was 7
haha then tt guy said for me, one special
haha made me happier somehow
hm then ordered mcflurry
after like 4-6 mths
haha and amos give me free
so sweet right
talk with all the ppl there can laugh nonstop
later didnt really want to go home
so accompanied amos while he was eating
hm remembering the gd times haiz
going home after that just pushed me back to face reality
eating habit and ?
12:40 AMhey
i realised smt tt's with me
when i like someone,
my eatin habits become like normal.
1-2 meal a day sort of thing
but when i dont like anyone in particular,
i tend to overeat
or duno when to stop eating
hm haywire eating habits
haha weird right?
hm just smt i noticed
Sunday, September 21, 2008
drive in more
12:49 PMooohhh yah
i forgot smt
ohh my gosh
i can so come inside
whoa ohh!!
HAHA...managed to get past this grp of guys quite built
but missed lay
but damn cool!!!
haha i also shd fake also. helps me get past those tt try to jump n reject
hahaha so excited now...like overcame this barrier
haha know tt i shd try more often now
just got to be more confident n less afraid
injuried finger, right arm and right ankle
12:28 PMyst
hm some guys bang my hand
and now i cant do much
can barely type
it hurts bad
eh i need to write for tmr paper
now how?!
hm weirdly this is the first time i injuried my ankle badly
hm but it was fine by the time i reached home
miraculous healing powers...
haha help me guys..i need you
meet new ppl
like scary and this china dude
played moderate though..not tt great
but duno why this beng from the other side found me as a threat
me? im so nice, whr got threat to ur manhood?
(haha, you better watch it...i'll burn ur socks off)
hm this will help keep me away i hope
haha off to study
intense
I MISS MY VILLAGE!
sorry guys, i love playin at yishun
but bishan's my home
im comin back home after promos
wait for me...guanyang
quick renovate finish :D
a star shines
11:07 AMa star shine the brightest when everything else surrounding is the darkest
Saturday, September 20, 2008
randomness factor
2:43 AMrandom is smt that i do
random is smt some like and some dont
random is being spontaneous
random is leading a colorful life
random is doin life ur own way
random is choosing to be different
to me, random is me
that shd be my name
btw, how many ppl have this randomness factor? hm not many right? haha dare to try and prepare to get rejected. go for it
helpless and guilty
2:43 AMi need to study
i want to do well
but once i hear the word
i go running back to court
it keeps calling me
mocking me
i hate this feeling of helplessness
it aint a good feeling
i got to change
i got to change
can somebody tell me where im going?
random, poos and thinking
2:43 AMmuahahaha
back to my crazy, random self again
who cares what ppl think
i know i dont
do you??
hm current aims
promos end soon
play bball everyday after poos
dont fix my eyes
look see and look see more better
anyone know wad is poos btw??
wana know...curious until u want to die to know
tag and ask lah
haiz
ppl must think more
but dont over read into ppl's statements
some things are just wad it means
nothing more
hm i feel so good
i need to be more confident
and i realise i like running
esp when im playin bball well
haha ok
guys think more
whr is the link here?
obvious right?
there is none?
or maybe thr is?
just to leave u thinkin
Thursday, September 18, 2008
low performance but still a win secured
3:06 PMhaha
yst was friendly match against deyi sec sch
girls won 38-29 i think
guys lost by 6points
haha
im happy coz we won
and we won by ourselves
im happy coz it was full attendence
everyone was there
-sah
-jean
-queh
-ruz
-elmo
-sihui
-mornin
-jiangchun
-jiawei
-and me!!
2 more ppl then a whole team
haha
yst i toke 10 shots, practically all lays
only got in 4
40%
so disappointing but better effort
haiz even teacher saw tt i miss
hm analyse why and move on i guess
haha stop shoot or pass across
will do tt soon
hm i know i can do better
next aim:80% accuracy
must be more confident n relaxed
haha thks for all those who supported (:
haha promos is also next aim
comin soon
believe that i can do it
next to pull up my socks
they are droppin
just a friend
3:06 PMhey you
i hope u r reading this
just because u think the world is against you
u dont have to take it out on me
im not ur DOORMAT
im not ur PUNCHING BAG
im just tryin to be a good friend to you
if u cant be one back, i'll teach you
you are so inflexible and UNFUN to be ard
that you no real friends, only acquaintances
but im here to help you
i dont hate you
i hate ur attitude to me
i hate the way u treat me
the way u were when i first met u
and the way u are now is
two complete opposites
change back to who u were is best
after u learnt more
im sure u thought u'll be the same
u were at first
but now you are a waste
im here for you
just as a friend
nothing more
nothing less
just i ask one thing
can be a nice guy
just dont take it out on me
i dont want to be angry anymore
i hope you see this
i just want to be a friend
Monday, September 15, 2008
promote! promote well!
8:51 PMhey
gp was not bad
actually it was great
ohh my gosh! im so excited for the rest of the papers
haha hm need to plan time better
coz i needed 2 more mins to finish AQ
haha weird hm
i've decided that i will work hard
no more bball after wed
unless fri
no temptation anymore
fOcus fOcus fOcus
fOcus On the gOal
hm haha im gona promote
im gona do well
and you cant stop me
but you can help me ((:
Sunday, September 14, 2008
gp promo tmr!
8:18 PMhm
am i crazy or wad?!
believe it or not,
im so excited for gp promo tmr
crazy right?!
haha
also excited for basketball tutorial
whoa oh...!
not so excited for pcct or bio mass lesson though
hehe
but overall
excitement exudes from me
friendly on wed
2:12 PMhey guys,
having a friendly on wed. first time whr we are playin without the seniors. we are officially on our own now! ohhh my gosh!! so nervous. anyone who wanna support, tell me ok ok. hope u guys can come down. its at yjc at 5pm. haha i wont force anyone to come, understand?
haha just hope that i can perform and u guys will be thr to see it
haha pray that i wont be tired at all
no sweat man
phew... haha but before that im having gp promos and tell ya
im gonna ace it
dont care wad ppl think
just wana thank those ppl who continue to encourage, support and belive in me throughout all i've been through and goin through.love you guys
Saturday, September 13, 2008
focus
12:55 PMhaha hm
im just so like nonsense these days
im gonna only focus on my bball and my studies
from now until promos
i will not get upset over you
coz i will control myself
and i wont give u the chance to do so
seriously i aint jokin
loved and lost/ never loved?
1:49 AMage old saying
its better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all
hm well im not sure
well love hurts deep
loss also hurts deeply
not loving doesnt hurt
so no hurt at all
hm think carefully which is better
hurt terribly or no hurt at all
hm well im not in a position to say
but i know even when u havent lost
loving still hurts
so what's the diff?
Runnin...
1:36 AMsome parts
BY JESSE MCCARTNEY
Start but don't finish
I'm confessin' I'm confessin'
So baby just hear me out
I'm confessin' I'm confessin'
So baby just hear me out
I wanna show my heart
But I don't know where to start
I keep runnin'
So scared of the heart break
So scared of making mistakes
All I really need is you
I'm comin' face to face with myself
So can somebody tell me where I'm going?
im lost
i got no clue what's happening
what happens with you
changes my mood and everything
affects my whole life
how can this be?
haiz...i just feel so left out of my own life now
out of body feeling for a week now
Relapse...
1:30 AMBY JESSE MCCARTNEY
I know it's time I need to move on
Everyone is sayin' I need to control
The way I'm acting
The things that I'm doin' ain't good for me
'Cause I know this time I'm really trippin'
I know that it's deeper than what I'm feelin'
And I realize she's bad for my health
But it's too good just to walk away
She's got me in a daze she's got me in a trance
She's got me so thrown tonight no I need to recover
I keep falling back in love
And I know that this girl
She's not the one for me
And I know I'm only makin' it worse
When I let her go then I come on back every time I leave
Every time I leave every time I leave I keep comin' back
Every time I leave every time I leave every time I leave
I keep comin' back every time I leave
When I feel like she's out of that system of hers
Something pulls me in then I return to let her use me
I care not how she do me as long as she's around
In my mind I see that I'm slippin'
But I still can't seem to see the difference
My heart is sayin' yes to go
Body's sayin' no to it
I need to get a grip on this
seriously
im not sure wht tt or not
but this is sorta how it goes
im quite confused by what you do
one minute to the next, completely different
volatile, do i need this?
go figure...
runnin and relapse
1:21 AMhaha recently
i keep listening to this two songs
that i think say my current situation
is a sorta telling how i feel
even though abit diff situation
but same idea
Thursday, September 11, 2008
breakdown to motivated
12:03 AMhm
im so tired
many days of short slp is startin to add up
mental breakdown today
but after playin bball
everything's fine now
so gd now
haha motivated again
weird right?
motivated to study during bball
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
forget!
11:36 PMhaiz
haiz
haiz
very annoying
arghhh
i cant wait to play bball
and forget everything!
mingy study study
10:52 PMhey mingy,
haha gd studyin tdy
even though got some random njc guy trying to overtake me
by walking... so lame
then some cjc guy staring at me
and my friend's friend staring at me
creepy...guys are weirdos
we shd study again
maybe try kfc
haha subway food is nice
pizza hut??
hehe study hard for promos ok
glad we are ok
10:37 PMhey friend
gd to hear
i was really worried
haha hm gd to know we r in this tgt
haha sure bball fri on?
im so excited*the song*
hm i was so down the whole day becoz of this
and my fridge died
)):
but my teacher said smt gd
haha that my answer was the best in cohort
and im goin thailand!!!whoa
just wanted to share the gd news with you first
haha so we shall go celebrate
p.s:pls tell me that we can eat?
im sorry
7:14 PMhey
i hope you are reading this
im sorry if i did anything
to make you sad or angry at me
that was never my intention
i really appreciate that you are protecting me
seriously i would give . up
if u were interested in .
i dont anyone to come in between our friendship
i treasure it more than that
seriously the only reason why i wouldnt want . to know anything
is coz im afraid
afraid of rejection
i know who isnt lah
but this is my worst fear... trust me
its one of my only fear
no joke
i hope everything can go back to the way it was
p.s: i really miss ur company and jokes (:
Monday, September 8, 2008
i lost to kuku
3:27 PMi lost 1v1 yst
so blah..lousy
yst dont have any form
cant shoot, only rebound
no strength at all
still down again
i lost to kuku benny 11-8
now i have to run 5rounds
i cant even remember how it became 5rounds?
i feel so useless now
will challenge again though
and i WILL WIN
hehehe (:
confused but clear
12:15 AMi dont know what to think anymore
i just know i need to focus on EVERYTHING
is that possible?
yah man, i can do it
p.s: im so into ricky rubio... wah :D
Sunday, September 7, 2008
overtaking you in style, man!
4:00 PMIM SO NOT GONNA FLUNK PROMOS
haha im serious
im gonna show everyone that ever doubted me
that im gonna play and study hard
im not gonna study so hard that i sacrifice slp and my social life
im gonna prove that the old prasana
the one that knew that i can do it is back
you can think all u want
but u gonna be wrong that im not goin to beat you
i am
so u better watch up
im blazing ahead in style
MOVING AHD IN LIFE
OVERTAKING YOU IN STYLE
my down issue
2:40 PMeveryone keeps askin me,
why am i so down?
why are my posts so emo?
and isit about you?
haha thks for ur concern
but i can handle it i think
hm i always have gotten through everything
by my own
i know all of u are thr for me
but i just wont say anything esp on msn
im not the kind of the person that
goes ard tellin everyone my problems
i need to tell at my own time
sometimes at random times
whr u wont even notice
but i will tell u face to face
so dont be worry
i will go back to my random self soon
just trust me and back me up here
i will share when im ready
read between the lines
12:05 AMLines may not convey a message
overlooked pictures may contain deeper shades of truth
versatile designs dont serve as anything more than a cover up
extra fine print dont hide their agendas
I dont think i can be another one
something that's just ordinary to you
not a puzzle that conveniently fits
to ur complex life
For this message hides a meaning
obvious it shall be for those who look closely
really obvious one that i have learnt now
My life has be wrecked by you
escthatic, how can i ever be
can you read between the lines?
Saturday, September 6, 2008
dancing in the rain
11:24 PMhm kinda down the whole day
cip kept my mind from wondering
but after gettin my pencilcase
and heading back to yishun,
it all started again
haha hm shell and abigail ran away
left me alone thr with haiz
hm felt even more worst
felt like running away for good
i choose to come back
after that, i played in the rain
pants all wet and my shoes all soaked
that was the time that i forgot but remembered
all at the same time
didnt care what people thought
but only knew what i made me so down
dying flame
3:30 AMmy heart was beating fine
until you poisoned it
now its falling apart
how to salvage all that is lost
this is the beginning of the end
a bus hit me again today
i have died with it
all is lost and i cant be found within this dying flame
kuku benny
1:55 AMdumb dumb benny say that on 4sep 2008
he "nvr lost a single match during in 10 games"
haha but he still lost to me!
muhahahaha
even though he managed to shake me off ONCE
i beat him in 1v1 haha
so funny and abc
and pressure
dare to play again?
4th Sep
1:25 AMhaha
the day i lost my bag
i made a pact with myself
to play well for the remaining 1 hr or so
i did ok i guess
but after light off
shell and sah went off
but me and abigail stayed lor until 11.30
we continued to play
benny and wei hao(his pri sch friend) joined us
interesting hm
played abc got 2nd
haha benny so lousy!
then played pressure
whoa haha i won
which is a miracle
haha i kept shootin in alot
even when i didnt want to
record for me
my main purpose was to defeat benny
and i did, he died first (:
see his face, so terrible
played a few matches
then missed my train to Marina Bay
abigail missed her bus
so she stayed over
we talked the night away
went for a long walk
and ate cup noodles
i miss those times /:
gd times
haha very interesing to share new stuff
and weird thoughts haha
u'll nvr know i guess :X
Friday, September 5, 2008
awesome bball match, guys
11:50 PMwoah! that's all i can say
today was one of the best days i've played
in a long long time
shoot shoot chop
haha cool lah
thank God
we played at 755 at sah's village
sah, shell and abigail also played very well
weird and funny things happened
burned alot of guys (;
esp the last match were the odds were against us
i think at the beginning they gave chance
later then serious alr
i shot ard 4 balls
wah last ball chop went in
im ecstatic
inside me, im jumping lor
i was so honoured when the guy i burned
came up to me and shoke my hand
and said you r gd
hehe so happy
but i know i cant become big head
coz accuracy and skill can come and poof
so must work hard but i must study hard too (:
one of the best fridays ever
coz last friday also is the other best friday (;
cool!Awesome bball match guys
IM SO HYPED NOW!!!
Abigail, guest blogger
2:31 AMLOL i think this is really funny.xD and u are quite calm thought after losing your bag. I will totally freak out if i were you. I am also SO curious to know why the thief steal your bag. But i Suspect it is a male and you can tell that to the police lol! because i don't think many girls will be interested in your bag.-.- So positive you are =D
my bag and psp just poof
2:20 AMtoday was the first day i lost something
hm my bag totally disappear
vanish...poof...
haha weird right
think someone just walk away with it
haha the first thought was that they jealous of my bag
haha then just wanted it lor
then i realised my psp was inside
haha i couldnt take it seriously
i kept jokin and laughin
i was the most calm
sah and shell felt bad
but its not ur fault u guys
hahaha im so different compared to last time
hm most probably in the past
i will get angry
haha but i prefer the new me
even though things are precious to me
but my friends are more impt
look on the bright side
i get new stuff now haha
Thursday, September 4, 2008
random thoughts
12:54 AMhonestly, im stumped
i got no clue what to write about
some random thoughts here
unexpected thing
12:30 AMhaha the most unexpected thing happened yst
kinda enjoyed it but u'll nvr know i guess
unless u are a psychic or have a brain-reading machine
hm well it was quite interesting
rushed to sch for pw consultation
afterwhich rushed over to science centre
for that science presentation
rushed back again for training
but weirdly i did have entertainment until presentation
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
promos and rewards after
1:01 AMmy camera and samsung omnia coming soon now.
my rewards for promos are set but im so not ready
wah cant wait for promos to be over
then i will go home late everyday
play bball again and love my macs
relapse
12:27 AMits such a waste,
if i wasted my day.
if i wasted my day,
only by thinking of you.
only by thinking of you,
i feel happy and sad at the same time.
i feel happy and sad at the same time,
it makes me fall more for you.
it makes me fall more for you,
its such a waste of time
breakdance at bball court
12:24 AMwah
so embarrassing and cool at the same time
i fell down twice coz the floor so slippery
then did 2 stunts
seems like breakdance
kinda boring bball day
but also quite fun
but now my left bum is pain -_-
Monday, September 1, 2008
worst monday of my life
10:26 PMi can honestly say that this is possibly the WORST MONDAY of my life
worst of all its the holidays
i feel like a bus hit me
why does this always happen to me?
i will never give it away
only to salvage the remains
its digs deep and im not will to put myself out thr for that again
so now im taking it back forever
but im sure i will fall back again
but i know that God is my only hope
he is the only one that truely loves me and live for that and noone else